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THE
REAL SELF
or Love Is The
Answer
by Lawrence
Wilson
Copyright
©2018, LD Wilson Consultants, Inc.
TABLE OF
CONTENTS
Sources And
Warnings!
Overview
Preface To The
First Edition
Introduction To the
First Edition
THOUGHTS MATTER MOST
I
Am Here Only To Be Truly Helpful
THE TWO SELVES
RELATIONSHIPS
Helping Others Is Helping Myself
FREEDOM AND POWER
Anything I Can Conceive I Can
Achieve
I Take Full
Responsibility For My Life
LOVE
I Am The Extension Of
The Creator’s Love Into This World of Form
The Creator’s Desire
Is That I Be Happy
I Am Either In Love Or In Fear
I Am Here To Bring
Content To The World Of Form
PAST AND PRESENT
I Remain In The Present Moment
My Past And Present Are
Perfect
THE WORLD
I Am Here To Radiate, Not To
Absorb
No Excessive Seriousness Allowed
I Choose To Allow My
Light To Shine
JUDGMENT AND DISCERNMENT
I Forgive Seventy Times Seven
Times
HEALING
Guilt Due To Separation Is Always
False
Separation From God Is
My Only Problem
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In the early 1990s,
Marc Hammer gave a series of lectures and absent discussions. These were recorded. This is
the major source used to assemble this book.
This source
material is available from the Shanti Christo Foundation (https://shantichristo.com/). Similar
ideas are found in a few other books.
To help you get the
most out of this book and these teachings, here are a few suggestions:
1. No nutritional guidance. The
sources say or imply that nutrition is not important. Instead, only one’s
thoughts matter and for nutritional guidance one can just tune into the Holy
Spirit. We respectfully disagree – nutrition matters a lot and just
“tuning in” does not work well for most people.
Also,
the Shanti Christo material makes reference to a
vegetarian diet. In the author’s view, this is very bad advice. Mr.
Hammer was a vegetarian at the time he presented his
information. For nutrition information, we suggest the articles at http://www.drlwilson.com.
2. No moral code and somewhat sexy. The
material that inspired this book does not recommend a moral code such as the
Ten Commandments Of Moses. Moral codes serve as anchors
and guides for societies and are absolutely needed.
3. Confusing use of religious language. The
source books include some religious-sounding words. These could
cause readers to believe that the teaching is a religion, and therefore not to
be questioned.
4. Difficulty with guidance. The
teaching advises one to ask the Holy Spirit for guidance for every type of
question and situation. However, I have found this is not easy! Interference with guidance and
consequent bad guidance is the rule, rather than the exception. To obtain
excellent guidance is very difficult! The source material does not
emphasize this fact. In our experience, the only way to obtain reliable
guidance is by following a procedure and developing
oneself. However, this topic is not in the source
material. For details, read Introduction
To Development.
A method of
obtaining guidance that may work a little is focusing attention on a point in
the head just below the pituitary gland. However, obtaining good guidance
is still very difficult.
5. Love does not mean sex. The sources advocate loving
others. Some, however, confuse this with having sex. Being the presence of love has
nothing to do with sex or romance. Instead, it is the act of
radiating a special energy outward into the world. Please do not
confuse these two very different activities.
6. No pulling down exercise. In
the source material, there is no mention of the pulling down exercise.
Yet it is most helpful to shift one’s perspective from the ego self to the Real
Self. It is also very helpful for receiving guidance. For details, read The Pulling Down Exercise.
Some will say that
any technique such as the pulling down exercise is a “magical means” and thus
not part of this teaching. We would answer that this exercise,
because it moves energy directly from the head to the feet, is not a magical
means. It is aligning with what you really are – a polarized being of
light.
7. No discussion of the ‘others’ or rogues. The
source material does not even mention the alien group some call the thugs, crud
or satans.
This large group exert a lot of control over the
earth. They control most publications here, and they corrupt most
spiritual teachings.
They prefer
secrecy, so they may not have permitted much to be said about them in
the material that inspired this book. However, they are very
important. For details, read The Rogues.
OVERVIEW
The basic teaching. Souls
and human beings are extensions of the love of the Creator into this world of
form. This view is quite different from the fear-based thought system
taught in the world, and is a very empowering, positive, uplifting idea.
An entire thought system. The book presents an entire system of thinking based
upon the concept above. A system means that all parts of it fit
together perfectly. It also means that viewed in isolation, the
ideas may not make sense. When reading this book, try to view the
ideas as part of a complete thought system.
A non-dualistic (one force)
philosophy. Many
people believe in good versus evil. This teaching proposes that
there is only one force, which it calls God or Creator. Evil is not
a force, but merely a deficit or absence of good. The Christian and
Hebrew religions really present the same idea, but perhaps not as clearly.
The world is a feedback system. An
unusual aspect of this thought system is that whatever is occurring in one’s
life is but feedback regarding one’s thoughts. For example, if one thinks
thoughts of lack, one will experience lack. This is how powerful are our
thoughts. The teaching is that we are free to
think differently, and life will then begin to improve.
Souls. Parts
of the teaching require viewing the world from a soul perspective. This
is unusual, but very important. Souls are real, the teaching
asserts, and are the most basic units of consciousness in all living
things. Souls are very tiny, and they do not die. As a
result, they perceive differently from human beings, who are much more delicate
and mortal.
The big shift. Living well, the teaching
asserts, requires a shift in identity from a false, fear-based identity called
the ego self, to a new identity. This book calls the new identity the
Real Self.
The shift requires:
1. Some understanding. This book can help with this.
2. The Pulling Down Exercise,
and an entire development program, as described at www.drlwilson.com. The reason is that there are vertical energy channels
running from the head to the feet that must be opened, nourished, and cleared
of toxic material. Only then will one feel like an open channel through
which a loving energy flows and guides one’s entire life. This is the
feeling of identifying as the Real Self.
Preface To The First Edition
I am thankful for
the grace that changed my mind. I have learned that I am an
extension of the love of the Creator into this world of form. I have also
learned that thoughts matter a great deal. Discovering my deepest
thoughts, and how they affect my life, has been quite an adventure. May
this small volume light your way as you discover what you truly are.
Introduction To The First Edition
This book describes
a reality that has been known for thousands of years. A
joyous view of life, it is an antidote for suffering.
Most people base
their life on the idea that I am the body. Since the body is subject
to many kinds of problems, identifying as the body results in seeing a fearful
world.
Another thought is
possible. I am not the body, but something far
greater. This thought results in the experience of a joyous world, a
parallel reality that exists right here.
Shifting this basic
thought requires undoing years of programming, so be patient. The
ideas in this book need to be experienced as real, not just read and
understood. Read them many times and be patient and persistent until
inside you begin to feel their truth.
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THOUGHTS MATTER MOST
Thoughts are bolts
of energy that create ripples in the ether of space. Like pebbles
thrown into a pond, each creates a ripple that spreads far and
wide. Objects and events are the result.
I am free
to think as I like. However, all
thoughts have consequences. Every thought is powerful, with no
exceptions. I co-create my world with my thoughts. This
concept is the thrust of this teaching.
The pulling down procedure. In
order to think only loving thoughts, I need to know that Love is real. To
know this I need to do the Pulling Down Procedure
– often and forcefully.
Everything I see
began as a thought. Each thought is creative. If I have a
body, I must have thought of having a body. If I have a soul, I must
have thought of having a soul. If I live in a house, I must have
thought of having a house. That is how creation works.
I may strive and
pray to achieve what I desire. They call this “positive
thinking”. I cannot figure out why results are slow in coming.
The problem is that
in between the prayers and affirmations, I indulge the opposite
thoughts. "I don't deserve this new car" or "Maybe I
am sick" or “I am hopeless.”
My
positive thoughts are offset by hidden negative thinking. My problem is I create unconsciously,
unaware of my hidden thoughts. Nor am I aware of the power of my
random thoughts.
In fact, positive
thinking is the only method to bring anything into my life. If
positive thinking does not work it is only because my desires are
conflicted. Negative thoughts are mixed in with those that
are positive.
To learn to think
carefully and correctly is the goal of this book. Each topic in this
book is a facet of this jewel. Thinking only
loving thoughts creates a loving world.
The pulling down procedure. Once
again, in order to think only loving thoughts, I need to know that Love is
real. To know this I need to do the Pulling Down
Procedure – often and forcefully.
Exercise:
Becoming aware of
my thoughts is the first step to changing my life. To be happy and
healthy, I examine each and every thought. Otherwise, random and sloppy thinking lead to random, sloppy and
often very hazardous living.
More than any other
method, the pushing down exercise helps me observe my thoughts. I
sit quietly, focus on my feet or just below them, and pull or push energy
straight down from my head to my feet.
This process gets
me out of my head. It can feel strange, and perhaps
unpleasant. I may become aware of long-suppressed negative thoughts
or feelings.
I also notice the
constant chatter of the thinking mind. At times, it may race like a
wild horse, running to and fro.
In addition to
pushing down, slowing down my busy life is another helpful method. I
walk, eat, talk and breathe slower.
I am patient and
compassionate with myself as I begin to observe the mind. I need not
force thoughts to stop. By observing them, on their own they will
slow down.
Little by little, I
learn to remember only my loving thoughts. As I teach only love, my
life will improve.
In reality, I am a
Real Self, unlimited and perfect. I am unlimited in my awareness,
power and freedom.
However, I have
chosen to limit my thinking. I have created a dream or dream-like
state of being. It includes the dream of time, and of having souls
and a body that exist in time.
This teaching
further divides this dream state into the happy dream and the unhappy
dream. The happy dream is living as the Real
Self. The unhappy dream, which is the situation of most people, is
living as the ego self.
Identified as the
ego self, life is very limited. Fear, anger, guilt, and other
negative emotions contract the ego’s thinking.
The goal of this
teaching is to shift my awareness away from limitation and toward the reality
of unlimitedness. Only this shift allows me to see that I am
not just the body and the mind. I am much more. In fact,
all things are inside of me.
In reality, I have
already awakened from the dream. In fact, I am watching a rerun of
the process of awakening.
Shifting my
perspective away from limitation and toward unlimitedness, from the ego
self to the Real Self, is the most important use of time.
Exercise:
I take the time
every day to think about the idea of unlimitedness. This helps
me to accept it into my
consciousness. Eventually, unlimitedness becomes my
reality and is not unusual or scary.
To some whose
thinking is sloppy, judging means holding any opinion about anything at
all. Those who would destroy our culture think along these
lines. It is a way to confuse and negate the views of
others. If I believe in God, for example, they say I am judging all
those who do not believe in God.
This is untrue,
however. Belief in God is an opinion, and everyone holds opinions. Opinions
are but thoughts that help me make decisions.
Judgment is
something else. It is the arrogant belief that I know all there is
to know about a person or situation. It has an emotional quality and
a finality that shuts down further inquiry. Judgment always comes
from the lower energy centers, and is never a reasoned response.
It is like saying,
“I know everything and you are wrong!” It is always incorrect
because I never have all the facts about anyone or anything. Oddly,
it is exactly what some left-wing people sound like when they accuse others of
judging.
Identified as the
ego self, I judge people and situations all of the time. This is one
way the ego compensates for its weakness and confusion.
If I wish to stop
judging, I identify as the Real Self. I still hold
opinions. However, I do not make final judgments because I leave
that up to God.
In the New
Testament of the Bible, Jesus says “Judge
not, lest you be judged” (Luke 6:37). Some people say Christians are
hypocrites because they judge others when their Bible says not to judge.
However, Christians
do not judge. They hold an opinion. They leave judgment
up to God. So there is no hypocrisy by Christians in our world.
Exercise:
I hold opinions of
many kinds. However, now and then I may notice that I have judged a
situation or a person. I have closed my mind completely.
Right away I
know I am identifying with my ego self. Judging makes my ego self
feel more secure.
I remind myself
that I am not the ego self. I never know everything about a person
or situation needed to make a final judgment. That I leave up to
God. I am a Real Self, unlimited in power and love, with no need or
desire to judge others in order to feel safe.
Arrogance is the
belief that I know something when really I do not know. It can also
be the belief that I am something that I am not. Arrogance is always
an upward movement of energy and a primary quality of the false self or
ego. It comforts the ego, which always feels unsure of itself.
Arrogance is a
mental illness that is difficult to heal. It can involve pumping
myself up, or it can involve degrading myself. When I pump myself
up, the quality is pride or haughtiness. When I put myself down, the
quality is self-deprecation. Both are quite harmful to the body and
mind.
Identified as the
ego self, I will be arrogant, at least to a degree, because I am living with a
false identity. I don’t really know who or what I am.
Identified as the
Real Self, arrogance melts away. I am no longer confused about my
identity or worth. I depend upon the Creator, who informs me
correctly about who I am and about the truth of all things.
Exercise:
I look for
arrogance in myself because it tells me I am not living as the Real
Self. When I find it, I discard it.
Perhaps I need to
apologize to someone to I spoke to incorrectly. This can help me
clear away the ego trait of arrogance.
I AM HERE ONLY TO
BE TRULY HELPFUL
Identified as the
ego self, I am mainly concerned with the ego’s needs. Satisfying them
takes up most of my time. This can seem helpful, but often it is not,
since it is based upon separation from God and separation from others.
Identified as the
Real Self, it is easy to be truly helpful. Humans need help in four different
ways: to survive, to learn, to develop, and to mature. I truly help by
working on myself. In all of these ways, I help others, as well.
Exercise:
Help with survival
means helping with food, shelter, lifestyle and basic health. Help with
learning involves education, training and study.
Development is less
well understood. It is the opening and growth of the seven physical
energy centers. Also, it is the filling of the five upper energy fields
or bodies of a human being. For best results, development requires a
specific program. To learn more, read Introduction
To Development.
Helping with
maturity is often the most difficult. I need to mature in order to offer
it to others. Maturity has to do with living in integrity. It also
requires self-honesty and obedience to the highest principles. As I
achieve this, I can mentor others and help them to move in the same direction.
THE
TWO SELVES
This teaching
focuses on the question of who am I. A body-mind is what I believe I
am. This is understandable because the body demands so much time and
attention. However, this is not the Real Self. The
body-mind is only a communication device.
The Real Self is a
sparkling point of light at the heart of my main or entity
soul. Invisible to the eyes, it is the greater part
of myself because it connects back to the Creator through a tiny wire
or filament.
At times, it
associates with physical bodies and discards them when no longer
useful. Closely connected to the source of creation, the Real Self
is a spark of the divine. Like a sunbeam to the sun or a wave to the
ocean, it is an extension of the Creator’s love.
From the
perspective of the Real Self, most people suffer from amnesia. They
invent new and often unhappy lives, having forgotten who and what they really
are.
Exercise:
My main task is to
shift my perspective. I want to identify more and more as the Real
Self. This automatically gives birth to a different thought system.
Living from this
new thought system means thinking in harmony with it most of the
time. This will expose thoughts from the false self that are in
opposition.
The false self is
the body-mind. It is a resistance against the truth of the Creator’s
love. It is a second identity that I made.
In this book, the
body-mind is called the ego. Its brain is a fancy
computer. Quite fallible is this part of the
machine. Fears, traumas and nutritional imbalances often disturb its
functioning. It cannot do more than calculate. Also, once
set in a pattern, it is difficult to change.
How the ego first arose is important for this
teaching. A long time ago, God decided to experience
Himself. He extended Himself to form trillions of sparks and
souls. These at first remained very close to their
source. In time, however, they ventured further, exploring in many
ways.
At some point in the process, they ignored the fact of their
oneness with their Creator and judged themselves guilty for separating from
their source.
Judging themselves stopped the flow of love from the
Creator. Absence of the primal energy of love caused feelings of
fear. Fear is nothing but the absence of the Creator’s love.
The souls then invented new identities in order to allay
their fear. These are the ego selves.
More than physical bodies and minds, the ego selves are
substitute identities based upon the belief in separation from the
Creator. However, separation from the Creator never occurred, so the
ego selves are always false.
The ego self is
somewhat like an elaborate space suit. We must wear it, we are
taught in school, to be present on earth. Delicate and
fallible, it is subject to accidents, stress and disease. Comfort
and self-preservation are its main concerns.
Eventually, it
wears out and must be replaced. This is
labeled death. However, it is only the end of the body-mind,
and not the end of the Real Self or spark of the divine.
Most people think
of themselves as the space suit and its computer. Misidentification
as the false self causes numerous problems. Their correction is the
subject of this book.
Thought begins in
the brain and naturally spreads downward to the feet. This is the
correct movement of energy for health, development and joy. The
brain influences the body, and not the other way around. The
Creator’s love is also a downward-moving energy.
Identified as the
ego self, I always move energy somewhat upwards from the feet to the
head. This is because the ego self is a reaction to fear and
guilt. Reaction and fear always move subtle energy upward from the
feet toward the head. This results in anxiety, depression and
illness.
The Real Self is
not a reaction, and fear is no longer real. This makes moving energy
downward much easier.
Exercise:
I notice if I am
moving energy either upward or downward through the body. When energy
moves upward, I am identified with the ego self.
I change my
thoughts and identify as the Real Self. This helps move energy
downward. Doing the Pushing Down Exercise is also most helpful (see The Pushing Down Exercise on
this website).
These words
describe tendencies in physics that can help me understand the Real and false
selves. Identifying as the false self is much more
yin. This means upward moving, colder and more
empty. This is the nature of the physical world because this
world is a creation of many false selves.
Identifying as the
Real Self, I become much more yang. The word means inwardly moving,
downward moving, warmer, and more compact. Also, anything that makes
the body-mind more yang will assist me to identify as
the Real Self. The major way to do this is with a diet of cooked
food that includes meat and excludes all fruit, sugars and sweets.
Exercise:
I notice the
condition of my body. A more yang body is rare, but has moons on all
the fingernails, and on all the toenails except for the baby
toes. Also, the eyes are centered in their sockets, and not slightly
rolled upwards, a sign of being more yin.
RELATIONSHIPS
Integrity means
that my entire life - my lifestyle, habits, friends and all else -
work together in a wholesome, honest, and meaningful way.
The word
integrity is related to the word integrated, which means put together and coordinated
properly. It is also related to the word integer, which means a whole number and
not fractionated.
The ego self is
never in integrity because it is a false self I created out of fear and the
false idea of separation from God. It is false because separation
never occurred.
Identified as the
Real Self, I live more in integrity. I am connected to
God, and all things in my life flow from this connection. For more
on this topic, read the article entitled Integrity on this website.
Exercise:
When
I am identified as the ego self, I often feel confused and perhaps pulled
in several directions at once. These are feelings of being out of
integrity.
When I identify as
the Real Self, there is a unity and coherence about my life. It is a
joyous and relaxed feeling.
HELPING OTHERS IS HELPING MYSELF
Identified as the
ego self, I am concerned mainly with myself. I may assist others, at
times, but this is motivated by a desire to have my ego needs
met.
This is
called “giving to get”. It is always futile, and amounts to
using other people to meet my ego needs.
Identified as the
Real Self, there is no separate self. I am one with the Real Self of
all others. Helping others is just helping a part of myself.
How this can be
true is important. Each soul has a tiny wire or cord attached on its
back. These cords are very long. Eventually, all of the
cords connect to one another.
Exercise:
I practice helping
others with the correct attitude. I do not see others as outside of
me, but rather as aspects of my Real Self.
This changes my
attitude completely. Now I want to help others in order to help
myself. It also makes for a happier world, which I want for
myself. Service to others becomes a goal of my life and I reap the
rewards, which are great.
Identified as an
ego, I compete with other egos. Some are smarter, wealthier, or more
beautiful than I.
However, identified
as the Real Self, other people are my salvation. Their Real Selves
and mine are one. Interacting with them, I learn who I really
am. They mirror to me, providing feedback about how well I am
learning my lessons about life. They teach me many things.
Exercise:
As I move through
my day, I pay attention and honor others, realizing that they are my teachers
and my saviors.
This teaching
distinguishes two kinds of relationships. Identified as the ego, I
enter into special relationships. These
are relationships with “special” people, places, or objects.
They give my ego a
boost and temporarily end the loneliness the ego self always
feels. Special relationships are always about using another person
or thing to satisfy the ego’s wants.
Identified as the
Real Self, I enter into holy
relationships. These do not involve special people, places or
objects. Instead, I extend the Creator’s love to all, without
exception. I am so filled with God’s love that it
overflows onto everyone I encounter. I can be truly helpful to
others because I am not concerned with meeting my ego’s needs.
Exercise:
I notice if I am
using anyone just to satisfy the ego’s wants and desires. This tells
me that I am in a special relationship, and not a holy one. If this
occurs, I step back and change my perspective so that I see the other as part
of myself, and not as one whom I can use for the ego’s purposes.
The ego self
competes with the Creator for dominance in my life and control over the body
and mind. Identified as the ego self, just thinking about God or
Creator can frighten me. He might torment and punish me, judging my
thoughts and behavior.
Identified as the
Real Self, I see the truth. The Creator is the source of all
love. My primary relationship is with the Creator. It is
a loving and happy relationship that cannot falter. His loving
energy fills me always.
All my other
relationships depend upon this one. As long as I recall that my
primary relationship is with the Creator, all other relationships remain in
balance. I need not use people to satisfy the ego.
Exercise:
As I go through my
day, I recall that the Creator is my primary relationship. Everyone
else is my friend. Relationships with friends are less important,
and depend upon my relationship with the Creator.
FREEDOM AND POWER
The definition of
free is unrestrained by any external obligation, power or
authority. The ego self is never free. A fabrication of
the mind, it is based on guilt and fear. It cannot freely
choose. A mere facade, it lacks the authority and independence
freedom requires. Although it may enjoy an illusory form of freedom
at times, I cannot be free identified as the ego self.
Identified as a
body-mind, security is more important than freedom. The ego self
supports laws that compromise freedom if they seem to enhance security.
The Real Self lives
in a dimension of freedom, the essential quality of the spirit. All
Real Selves share one mind. No others are there to constrain
it. Uninvolved with this dimension, the world’s rules do not bind
it. The physical body may be tortured or imprisoned. It
matters not to the Real Self. One with the Creator’s energy, no
external power controls it. The Real Self is always free.
The American
Declaration Of Independence reflects this idea, beautifully expressed
by the nation’s founders. All are born equal and free.
Identified as egos were those who came later. Judges and
legislators, the media and the public today do not understand the idea
of freedom
as a basic spiritual truth. Unable to comprehend its essence,
freedom to these makes little sense. Safety and security, power and
control, these matter more.
Exercise:
Identified as the
Real Self, freedom is the essence of my true being. Freedom in this
world reminds me of this fact. In conditions of
freedom,
my spirit is so much happier.
I am free, however,
to enslave myself in any of a thousand ways. Believing I am a
body-mind is one of those ways. At any time, I can choose
again. I practice moving energy downward from my head to my feet
because it reminds me that I am free.
Sovereign means
superior in position and possessing unlimited
authority,
or supreme in power. Victimhood or “subject to” are its
opposite. If I identify as the ego, I will feel like a
victim.
In part this is
because the ego self is created, not creative, cut off from the source of
power. It is also delicate and easily hurt by others.
From its position
as subject to, it sees a dog-eat-dog world. Some are strong and in
control while the majority are their pawns. When one dictator falls,
a new one takes his place in a never-ending struggle of survival of the
fittest.
Pretending I am not
sovereign and powerful is the result of identifying as the ego. Identified
as the Real Self, sovereignty is my true condition. I co-create
everything that occurs, so powerful am I.
I am never subject
to another as all Real Selves share one mind. Aligned with the
source of all power, Real Selves live from full power all of the
time. If I am unaware of this power, it is because I do not
control my thoughts.
Also, I have the
authority to give my power away. Many ego-identified people,
convinced of their fallibility, fear their own power and willingly give it
away. This is how most people live. One gives power away
while another takes it on. It is a curious game that so many choose
to play.
Leaders eager to
gain power over their followers encourage them to blame. This places
responsibility and power outside of themselves.
Many want the
government or someone else to make them safe and secure. They do not
realize that delegating responsibility means giving power away. This
reduces safety which gives rise to more fear and greater demands for external
authorities. By means of this vicious cycle, loss of personal and
political power is the rule on planet earth.
All Real Selves are
sovereign and thus I have no power over others. They consent to all
that occurs. Power cannot be abused. One oppresses
another only with mutual consent. Guilt due to harming others is
always untrue.
The word sovereign
is often reserved for kings and other monarchs. Among nations,
America is unique in declaring that all the people are
sovereign. Though power is delegated to the government, its
source remains in the citizenry.
Exercise:
I practice living
each moment with full power. The following statements I
repeat: "I and I alone am sovereign in my
life. Never am I a victim of the world I see. I control
my life. The power to
change is
in my hands".
When I feel like a
victim I say, "I am using my full power to give my power
away. I now retake my power". When guilty feelings
arise, I remember everyone controls their own lives.
ANYTHING I CAN CONCEIVE I CAN ACHIEVE
I achieve little when
I identify as the ego self. This occurs because the ego self is
limited in its power and its vision.
Identified as the
Real Self, my power is unlimited and I can achieve great things. In
fact, this is a spiritual principle.
However, even
identified as the Real Self, I may not accomplish much. If this
occurs, it is only because I made a different commitment.
For example, I may
wish to have a new home. So I imagine this home and attempt to have
it manifest.
The problem is that
in between my positive thoughts about the new home, unconsciously I think
negative thoughts. For example, I may think, “I really don’t deserve
a new home” or “Perhaps I don’t want a new home”. As a result, the
new home does not come to be.
Mixing positive and
negative thoughts is a common human trait. It stops me from
achieving my goals.
Exercise:
I realize that I
can achieve what I wish, but I must control my thoughts. I begin to
notice when my mind wanders, focusing on stray thoughts and desires that
detract from what I want. The Pushing Down Exercise helps
me learn to focus my attention and to stop negative thinking.
In the ego's
fearful world, everyone is a potential victim. The latest ones the
news announces daily. Who is at fault is the basis for the entire
legal system. Ruled by oppression and luck, the world appears as a
hazardous place. An unfair world, each seeks his fortune competing
with all others.
Opposing logic
characterizes those identified as the Real Self. I am in control and
everything unfolds based upon my thoughts. No matter what the
appearance, there are no victims since all Real Selves
are co-Creators. Cooperation
is the theme. The principle applies to everyone, even the most
dependent child, as in truth all are aspects of a Real Self.
Those who do not
believe in victims are often considered uncaring. How dare
one not feel sorry for innocent victims of crime? Although false,
this keeps many believing in victims all throughout their lives.
Far more
compassionate, according to all their sovereign status assists them to help
themselves. If directed by the Holy Spirit, I may work hard to help
those in need. I view them as friends, however, not
as victims.
Some say that the
idea that there are no victims means that people deserve their
suffering. No one, however, is blaming the
victim. Everyone deserves the best, though some will choose
suffering.
One may choose pain
to teach another or awaken a friend. Another may want to learn more
about fear or loss. Not knowing, I dare not judge another soul’s
situation.
Spiritual paths
speak of the law of cause and effect. No one, they say, is
exempt. My past behavior determines my life and for
this reason there are no victims. One could say, however,
this means I am a victim of my past behavior.
In truth, however,
when events occur, I am free to respond any way I wish. I remain in
control and never am a victim. Also, where
there is
perfect love there is no karma.
Exercise:
The idea of victims
is pervasive in the world, reinforced daily by the mass
media. Subtle forms of the victim identity are thoughts that someone
did something to me, something happened to me or another caused my gain or
loss.
Playing the victim
is comfortable for the ego. Subtle victim phrases used in everyday
conversation include I was abandoned, abused, molested, harassed, lied to or
manipulated. Few falsehoods, however, are as disempowering and
inhibit awakening as much as the belief in victims.
Identified
as the Real Self, I cannot be a victim. Though I do not know why
events transpire, I know that life is under each one’s
control. Others cannot be victims any more than can
I. According each his sovereignty is far more compassionate.
If I meet a
homeless person, I may decide to give him some money. On another
occasion, the guidance may be different. This person can be
employed. My help would only get in his way. Rather than
deciding that someone is a victim, I wait and listen for the best response.
I TAKE FULL RESPONSIBILITY FOR MY LIFE
My birth or my position are easy to blame for my
situation. The government or my health, perhaps these are to
blame. Happy to take credit when things go well, to pin blame the
ego often looks outside
itself.
Identified as the
Real Self, my sovereignty implies responsibility. I choose my
thoughts and my behavior. Others are never to blame. I am
always responsible, though I may pretend I am not.
The spiritual
lifestyle demands taking full responsibility for every area of
life. I am responsible for my health and finances, my work and
choice of companions. For my condition, I cease to blame anything
outside myself.
If responsibility
feels heavy, I have assumed more than my share. Sovereign in my
domain, I have no responsibility for others' situations. Within
their realm, they too are sovereign co-Creators. If I have children,
I am responsible for their health and safety. Beyond this, however,
my responsibility is to the Real Self to extend the energy of Love.
Today,
responsibility is often linked to guilt. No connection,
however, exists between the two. The word responsible means the
ability to respond. Guilt, the judgment of culpability, is an
entirely
different concept.
Exercise:
Blaming others when
things go poorly is the ego’s pattern. When this occurs, I recall
that I am responsible for my condition. As the Real Self, I am
always in charge of every aspect of my life.
I also realize that
others are responsible for their own lives. I help others learn what
responsibility means. I let go of those who refuse to take
responsibility for themselves.
LOVE
Love, for most
people, is an ego thrill. One may love cars, sex or
music. Sunsets and ocean waves are what others
love. Whatever provides the right sensation is
considered love.
Projecting aspects
of myself makes this kind of love. Instead of feeling
beautiful inside, I look for beauty outside of myself. If I project
my goodness, I will see goodness outside of myself. Loving the
person or thing outside me, I attempt to possess its goodness.
Conditional, this
love requires special people, special places or special things. It
also depends on the five senses. Often it involves effort and
compromise. I will love you (give you what you want) if you do the
same for me. It is often short-lived, here one day and gone the
next. When
it ends, it easily turns to hate.
If I can project
goodness, I can also project anger. This is sometimes
called the search for special relationships.
There is another
kind of love. It is an energy, not a
feeling. From the mysterious source of all things, it flows
forth. It is the energy that creates all things. It
is 'the force' in the Star Wars movies. It is the 'tao' in taoism. Like a giant generator, it is the power
source for all of creation. If it were to stop, all would disappear.
This love never
wanes. It is present always, though I may choose to ignore
it. It flows freely to everyone and everything. It never
compels or demands. It is never conditional, nor does it bind.
Indeed, it sets
others free. It is fulfilled within itself and does not
depend on anything external. Within this text, the word love refers
to this creative energy, the essence of the Real Self.
This love never
focuses on just one person, activity or object. It has little to do
with sex, romance, friends or family. It has nothing to do with
anyone else. It cannot be bargained for and never involves
compromise. It never takes or uses, and simply flows
forth. It is a quiet, gentle energy that heals and nourishes
the body-mind. Ego sensations may seem more exciting, but it
depletes the body.
This kind of love
may not appear compassionate. The need for this love must be
satisfied from within. Giving others what they think
they want
may not serve them. Saying ‘no’ may be the loving thing to
do. This encourages others to search more deeply. Tough
love, this is sometimes called.
The creative energy
of love may take many forms. Like the “dark side of the
force” these include war and terror. They, too, are expressions
of the one energy of love. There is no other force. What
some call evil is love applied in ways I do not understand. Knowing
this helps me not to judge. I remain at peace and wish all souls
well.
Exercise:
I feel the
limitations of the ego's loves. I am relieved to know there is
another kind of love. It is here for me all of the
time. So that I can give this kind of love, I choose to receive it.
To bring in more of
this love, I do the pushing down or pulling down exercise described at
www.drlwilson.com. One visualization is
to sit or lie quietly and imagine myself underneath a powerful waterfall or
shower.
I let go of any
resistance and allow the Creator's love to flow through me. With
some practice, I may feel the Creator's love pouring into me.
This exercise is
most effective when I actively draw the energy down into
myself. With practice, I create a powerful downward
flow. Each day I practice for an hour or two. I carry the
feeling with me throughout the entire day.
I AM THE EXTENSION OF THE CREATOR'S
LOVE INTO THIS WORLD OF FORM
Identified as an
ego, I take on many roles. I am a parent or a friend, a student or a
worker. An imperfect being, I fumble my way through
life. The belief that I am pure love is not one held by many
people. I seem too flawed for this to be true. This
perception stems from identifying as the ego.
Identified as the
Real Self, I am an expression of the Creator’s love. I can only be
its extension into the world of form. This is my true identity,
no matter what the appearance. The Real Self is love. The
body is only a shell or vehicle.
This truth does not
depend on the body’s health, behavior or other circumstances. I
cannot change it by believing its opposite. I can, however,
block the awareness that I am love by believing I am the ego, or that
something exists other than love. I give up any held beliefs that
block the flow of love. These may include that I am unworthy or I
am undeserving.
Such beliefs may
apply to the false self. They cannot apply to the Real Self that is
one with the Creator. I let go of all hatred and judgment of myself.
The Real Self lives
by grace. Into my life I welcome the good, the holy and
the beautiful. As I correct my thinking, I realize more and
more that I am the extension of the Creator’s love into this world of
form.
Exercise:
Sitting quietly, I
imagine myself in the womb of the Creator. The warmth of the
Creator's love enfolds and caresses me. I feel safe and secure, and
totally at peace. Within the womb I am relaxed, nourished
and protected. I enjoy this feeling and realize it is the truth of
my existence.
I do this exercise
often. After a while, I am able to bring the feeling of grace with
me into my daily life.
THE
CREATOR’S DESIRE IS THAT I BE HAPPY
Identified as the
ego self, I may feel guilty and like a sinner. Perhaps the Creator
has terrible plans for me. I may run away from religion or
spirituality to avoid this feeling. I may run to material pleasures
and loves. This the world calls
happiness, running from
fear and
death.
To allay my guilt,
I may believe the Creator asks that I accomplish some difficult
mission. Life becomes a struggle. I cannot
relax. I may work too hard or take my life too
seriously. Cut off from the source of love, the ego cannot know real
happiness.
Identified as the
Real Self, I am the extension of the Creator’s love into this world of
form. To extend love into the world through me is the Creator’s
desire. This does not require a struggle. Since love is
what I am, extending love is my true happiness.
Neither an activity
nor an occupation, extending love is a decision made in every
moment. Whether home alone or at a job, I choose to be happy
extending the love that I am.
Exercise:
If I feel
condemned, I have falsely identified as an ego. Others identified as
egos may have taught me that I am a sinner very early in my life.
I am not condemned,
however, nor am I a sinner. I am one with the Creator, who asks only
that I be happy. Happiness is identifying as the Real Self and
blessing the world with the love that I am. Relaxed, I work at my
own pace, focused on extending love.
Unlike other
created beings, I can know what I am. This is different from knowing
who I am. Who often refers to the ego realm. What
I am refers to my basic identity.
The love I am I can
feel. I see beauty outside because I am beautiful
within. The Creator can be self aware through me. Knowing
what I am helps maintain my focus. Learning to feel what I am is my
first task.
Extending love is
my happiness. Love must first flow to me to be extended to
others. I accept love into myself so that I may extend it to others.
Loving myself means
I accept all of my creations. This includes the ones that do not
turn out as I expected. It also means I accept my appearance and my
personality. I accept my abilities and my shortcomings. I
accept that all traits are subject to change. I give myself
permission to be what I am. I let go of anyone who will not allow me
to be myself.
Exercise:
Even when life
appears to be in a mess, I continue to love myself and
all of my creations. I repeat often, "I am loved, I am
loving and I am lovable, forever". I continue repeating this
statement until it feels perfectly comfortable. "I am loved, I
am loving and I am lovable, forever".
I AM EITHER IN
LOVE OR IN FEAR
In every moment, I
experience fear or love. Fear appears as an
energy, but in fact, it is just the absence of love. Fear is not a
real energy so one can say fear is unreal. The world often teaches that “He was stricken with fear”. In
reality, however, fear cannot strike because fear is not an
energy.
Darkness “falling”
is similar to fear striking. Darkness does not fall and fear does
not strike. Darkness is only the absence of light and fear the
absence of love.
Identified as an
ego, however, I forget the love that I am. Fear will then
appear. I can throw a blanket over a light bulb. Darkness
then will seem to appear. However, it is just the absence of light.
With a person
or thing I may think I can “fall in love”. This is never
right. I am already one with the Creator of
love. Identified as the Real Self, I am in Love all of the
time. Never does the love of the
Creator depend on external factors.
Another’s presence
may remind me that I am loved. I may then allow the Creator’s
love to flow to me. The love, however, never comes from another
person. It comes from my decision to accept a love that was always
present.
More often, I fall
out of love when I meet one I think I love. Seeking comfort or
support from others, I may separate myself from the Creator’s
love. This occurs often and leads to relationship problems. Eventually,
I realize that something has gone wrong.
I may blame my
partner when the fault lies with me.
I recall that all
love is from the Creator and it never ceases. The Creator is my true
soul mate. Everyone else is my friend. I can choose at
any time to be in Love, rather than in fear.
Exercise:
I can only be in
fear or in love. When I am angry, sad or anxious, I am
fearful. When I find myself in fear, I have forgotten my divine
self. Recalling the truth, love again flows to me.
Both love and fear
feed upon themselves. This results in escalating cycles of love or
fear.
Identified as the
ego self, I am prone to cycles of fear. Vicious cycles,
these are also called.
Fear causes
projection. I project my fear because feeling it is
unpleasant. The more I project my fear into the world, the more
fearful the world appears. This makes me more fearful, and the cycle
continues.
Cycles of fear can
also occur with the body. Panic attacks or anxiety attacks,
these are called. A fearful thought causes a bodily
reaction. This leads to more fear, which worsens the bodily
reaction. Soon the body is shaking and out of control.
A more subtle example is that fear worsens my
digestion. This interferes with my nutrition, thus weakening the
body. This leads to more fear, and the cycle slowly
escalates. Death of the body can be the result of this vicious
cycle.
Identified as the
Real Self, I experience love cycles. I am here to extend the love of
the Creator into this world of form. I do this in many ways, through
my work, relationships, family and hobbies.
Even while driving
my car, I bless and extend love to the other drivers. This improves
my health and increases my joy. This, in turn, enables me receive
more love from the Creator, which I then extend into the world. It
is a cascade effect of more and more love spread unto the world. I
benefit, and so does the world.
Exercise:
I practice
extending the love of the Creator into this world. It matters not
where I am or what I am doing. This helps set up cycles of love.
When fear arises, I
quickly shift my consciousness back to extending love. This is the
only way to prevent cycles of fear.
I AM HERE TO BRING CONTENT TO THE
WORLD OF FORM
As the Real Self,
there is an important reason for associating with a body-mind. It is
not to struggle or suffer, make money or have a family. While I have
talents and abilities, the purpose is far more profound. My purpose
in taking on a body is to bring content to the world of form.
Bodies, houses, the
stars and the sea, all are forms or structures. Content is the
essence of things, the creative energy of the universe. Physicists
know that what appears as solid is really
only energy. Content is the energy that permeates all
form. Here content and love mean the same thing.
There is a need to
know that life is not just form. To teach this fact I have come to
earth. This stems from compassion for the suffering of its
people. Pain arises by focusing on form while ignoring deeper
reality. Content is the essence that provides all meaning, while
forms are merely shells. If more people understood this, peace would
come to the planet. No longer would people argue over forms when the
love they seek is already here.
To be as a light in
the world is my true purpose. I have come to teach that content,
not form, is primary. I have come
to extend the love that I am. First I remember this truth about
myself. I then teach it to all those around me. This is
the essence of being a friend.
A friend is
anything that reminds me of the truth of what I am. For as long as
required, a friend holds the space of truth. Though miles away or
even without a body, a friend sees right through the ego self, to the Real Self
I am.
The ego also has
its friends. Others like itself are these, along with alcohol, drugs
and other diversions. They help it forget its true
nature. I choose those as friends who remind me to identify as
the Real
Self.
Exercise:
I imagine steps
leading to a house. I step up and walk through the
door. Inside is a large room with figures sitting around a
table. Each radiates a golden glow. Realizing they are my
friends, I join them. Together we serve the Creator as emissaries of
love upon the planet.
The ego mind feels
separate from the love of the Creator. As a substitute, it searches
for what it calls love. Its problem is it does not know what it is
looking for. A product of fear and guilt, it thinks that
pleasure is
love. Distraction, comfort and support from others are what it calls
love.
The Real Self is
made of love, the energy of the Creator. It is very different from
pleasure or support that depend on others.
Seeking for love
implies that I do not have it. This is always untrue. In
seeking for it, I have lied to myself. I also set myself up for
nothing but frustration. For how can I find something I already
have. This
is like looking for treasure far away when it awaits me right at home.
Most people spend
their entire lives seeking for love in one or another form. A
career, a relationship, fame or fortune, the list is endless. In the
world, I may find pleasure, support or companionship. I will not
find the love of the Creator.
I realize the futility
of the search. The love I seek is within me and I am here to extend
it. Understanding this helps others recall it is within them as
well.
Exercise:
Rather than seek
for love, I decide to be the presence of love. As the Real Self, I
am the source of love. Seeking for love outside
of myself makes no sense.
I imagine a light
or fire radiating from the middle of my chest. Like
the sun it shines forth, illuminating all that is
around. It shines forward and backward, to the left and to the
right, above and
below.
At first it
radiates just around me. I increase its power to encompass my
surroundings, my city and finally the entire planet earth. I
practice radiating love every single day.
PAST AND PRESENT
I REMAIN IN THE
PRESENT MOMENT
The ego always
lives in the past or the future. This is how it escapes its fear and
guilt. The ego loves to give special meaning to the past, based on
its own perceptions. It also builds a solid future that, in fact,
does not exist.
If I am living in
the past or future, I am identified as the ego. I am
living in the past if I feel guilt or remorse. Fear or anxiety mean I am in the future.
The present is all
there is. The Real Self always remains here. All
knowledge and opportunity is in the present. Concerns of the
past are handled in the present. To prepare for the
future, live in the here and now.
To build a house, I
need some plans. If a meeting begins at nine, I must leave by
eight. These activities I can handle in present time. Setting
long-term goals, however, tempts me to live in an uncertain
future. Planning needs to be flexible and responsive to changes in
present time.
I may confuse
living in the moment with so-called 'living it up'. Living in the
present is a heightened state of awareness. Living for the present
is indulging the ego. It denies real living, and substitutes for it
a thrill.
Exercise:
The following help
me stay in the present: "I am in the right place at the right
time.” “Over and over, thousands of times, my mind is trained to
stay right here". "If I feel guilty, I have slipped into the
past.” “If I find myself anxious or afraid, I am stuck in the
future".
"Finding
myself remorseful, I have slipped into the past. “When I feel
anxious or am caught up with goals, I am in the future.” “If I am
not in present time I bring myself back right away".
MY PAST AND PRESENT ARE PERFECT
The ego self loves
to dwell on the dramas of the past, blaming it for its present
situation. Identified as the Real Self, perfect was my
past. Though perhaps painful, awakening is all that
mattered. Events were set up to help break my ego
patterns. Mediated by the Holy Spirit, all was done in
perfection.
I cannot honestly
say what would have happened if things had been different. Struck by
a train might have been my end. I might have been so full of slumber
I never would have opened to change.
Perfect health,
perfect parents or perfect relationships may not be such blessings.
Awake, aware, and a
bit bruised, for all that transpired I give thanks. The past may
have been painful within its perfection. I release the pain and
allow the memories to fade.
My present also is
perfect. What I need for my awakening the Holy Spirit brings to
me. I do not know what is required, so I do not
judge. What others need to awaken I also do not know. I
refrain from judging their lives as imperfect in any way.
Although the
present is perfect, I may not agree with others' behavior. To learn
about self and others, many turn to fighting. They walk away when
the lessons have been learned. The effects on the human bodies
may be unfortunate, but less important than the lessons.
I am not required
to stop their fights. I may decide to act or I may not. I
can live in the world, perfect just the way
it is. Knowing that all is well, I can be at peace.
Exercise:
When memories
arise, I recall that the past was perfect. All that mattered is my
awakening. This greatly assists in releasing unhappy
memories.
The present is
perfect as well. The Holy Spirit brings to me exactly what I
need. I observe world events without drawing
conclusions. I see the good in everyone and everything, and wish all
beings well.
The ego cannot
discern the truth. Instead, information it amasses. Like
a computer, it is only a calculating machine with a giant memory.
Connected to the
source, the Real Self already knows all things. Choosing to identify
as the Real Self, the search for truth has ended.
Many teachings
recommend that I seek for truth. Seekers, however, are confused
because their egos are still in charge. The ego loves to seek but
not to find. For if it found the truth, its
purpose would exist no more. I remain a seeker if I identify
as the ego,
a substitute
for the truth of what I am.
Some will say no
more seeking is a way of avoiding problems. It can seem like denial
of the process of the journey. Seeking, however, is often more of a
distraction. I remain in the present. I experience and
embrace all that arises.
From the ego mind,
the spiritual search begins. As other methods fail to bring security
or control, the ego looks for new ones. The search for meaning is
one of these. Little does it know that if pursued deeply, this
search will end all searching.
By deciding I have
found, I set up a new dynamic. Saying and knowing I have found
affirms this is the truth. This helps it to be
achieved. Affirming that I am a seeker implies I have not found,
perpetuating the idea of seeking. Priding myself for
seeking is like taking pride in trying. It is not the same as
finding and doing.
The spiritual
journey has two phases. The first is the journey to the
kingdom. This, the spiritual search, is to end as soon as
possible. The rest of one's life is spent in the second
phase, the journey within the kingdom. There is little to do in this
phase but celebrate and bless this world. I am transformed,
identified as the Real Self all of the time. I have a different
energy that some will notice.
Exercise:
I catch myself when
I speak words related to seeking. These include "I do not
know", "I am confused", and "I am
ignorant". Others are "I cannot figure it out" and
"this does not make any sense".
I replace these
words with the thought that I am knowing. I
relax and allow the truth of all things to be revealed to
me. Confident am I (con fideo,
meaning 'with faith') that I will know all things as
I need to know them.
THE WORLD
I AM HERE TO RADIATE, NOT TO ABSORB
Identified as the
ego self, I tend to absorb the energies of those around me. Even
watching the television may cause me to absorb the projections of other egos,
none of which are pleasant. The result is impaired health,
depression and other problems.
Identified as the
Real Self, I am here to radiate the love of the Creator into this
world. That is my only real “job” and I do it wherever I go and in
whatever I do.
I have not come to
absorb the world’s misery. Instead of living the truth of what I am,
taking in others' vibrations will surely make me ill. I can have
empathy and compassion without absorbing the thoughts of others. To
radiate, not to absorb, is the reason I am here.
For women,
attracting and absorbing come naturally. They help ensure survival
of the race. So women have to work a little harder than men to
overcome their natural tendency to absorb, rather than to radiate.
Women may say, “If
I am not attracting, won’t I spend my life alone?” Radiating the
love of the Creator to all around you is very attractive. Absorbing
the projections of other ego selves is not nearly as attractive.
Exercise:
I sit quietly and
close my eyes. I imagine a powerful light located in the center of
my chest. It shines outward into this world in all
directions. I allow this feeling to flourish and grow within
me. Each time I practice this exercise, it helps remind me that I am
here to radiate, not to absorb.
Believing this
world is all there is, the scandals and killing are all too real. The
ego struggles to do its best and hopes all will turn out well.
Identifying as the
Real Self, the world is a giant theater stage. Here egos act out
their dramas. Some choose to be oppressors while others are their
victims. Some are villains while others are saints. Some
choose life as a tragedy while others choose romance or adventure.
I recall the world
is a stage. In this sense, it is not real. No one is
playing for keeps. I can step back and enjoy the
play. Bodies come and go while the Real Selves
remain. All Real Selves are the same in
power and
ability.
Like an actor who
confuses stage life with what is real, I may at times confuse my Real Self with
my role. Unless I am vigilant, over and over will this
happen. When it occurs, I step back, recalling what I
am. I can laugh at myself and the folly of
the play. I need not conform to a world that is not real.
Some teachings
suggest that everyone should act a certain way. Kind and generous is
the way all must be. This is indeed a noble goal. Yet
from my Real Self must this come. If
not, to assuage its guilt, good behavior is another ego trick.
Identified as an
ego, better to play the role well. The Holy Spirit directs the play
to assist egos to wake up. If with its part it is unhappy, the
ego may switch its role. The spiritual search it may also begin, to finally wake up. This is the ultimate
purpose of the entire drama.
An integral part of
this dimension, I cannot exit the play while I am here. I can,
however, participate and yet step back and enjoy it.
Exercise:
The world is but a
stage play. As long as I have a body, I too play a
role. Taking my role too seriously would be a great
mistake. If I become bored, I can change my part. I allow
myself to play my role unafraid of what others may think. Each role
has consequences, but none are greater.
I do not confuse my
acting with the Real Self that I am. My Real Self is greater than
any role and cannot be confined.
NO EXCESSIVE SERIOUSNESS ALLOWED
I play in this
dimension. The world I see is a projection, as on a movie
screen. As with any movie, taking it too seriously is a mistake.
Excessive
seriousness is always out of alignment. A mark of wisdom is a sense
of humor. Playfulness is always a quality of
enlightenment. One may ask, "How can I laugh when I have no
money?" "How can I be happy when I feel
terrible?" The answer is
I can, and often it
leads to healing.
Some say a lack of
sobriety means frivolity and no commitment. Commitment is important,
but need not be somber. A light-hearted approach goes a long way to
smooth the bumps in life.
Exercise:
I can laugh about
the stage play that is this world. I see the humor in everyone and
everything. I make no exceptions and make sure to laugh at myself as
well.
Subjects such as
money, politics and religion make many people overly serious. I
refuse to become this way. I play every day.
This does not mean
I do not care or am irresponsible. I appreciate money and use it
wisely, like a prop in a play, to help express the love that I am. I
do not ignore anything, but neither am I too serious about this world of
form. This keeps everything in the proper perspective.
Identified as the
ego self, I exist in a hypnotic state believing the physical world is all that
is real. All my suffering stems from this.
It is tempting to
remain asleep. There is always more to dream. The world
pulls me back into the exciting world of dreams. Until one wakes up,
dreams always seem real. Nor is waking up pleasant, at
first. Awakening may be unfamiliar and uncomfortable.
I can delay
awakening as long as I wish. I may awaken for a time and then go
back to sleep. The Holy Spirit helps me awaken, but the choice is
always mine. Most others are asleep. If I associate with
certain ones,
I will tend to fall back asleep.
To awaken
permanently, I decide I have had enough of dreams. I have had enough
of victimhood, fear and anger. I have had enough of accidents and
disease. I miss too much of life, like sleeping through most of the
day. I choose to identify as the Real Self and give thanks for my
awakening.
Exercise:
As though in a
hypnotic trance, most are asleep in the dream of this world. I have
had enough of this and I set my intent. I choose to awaken and stay
awake. Preferring reality over illusion,
I choose to live rather than to just exist. I choose companions who
also want to awaken.
I ask the Holy
Spirit to bring whatever I need for awakening to occur. Identified
as the Real Self, I realize how asleep I was. Awakening, the dream
of this world is nothing more than a projection of many ego selves.
The ego self is a
creature of habit. Its worst habit is its
fearfulness. Controlled by their habits, most people live
unconsciously a good portion of their lives. Identified as egos, they can
know no other way of living.
The ego’s habits
make it feel comfortable and in control. Powerless, its routines
compensate for fear and insecurity. Breaking one of its habits
exposes its fear.
I look at the ego
like a stranger in my life. I say, “This is not the real
me”. The ego helped me for a while. For this, I am
grateful. Now I am ready to renounce its control. No
longer must I obey its commands. The Holy Spirit is my new guide.
Instead of habits,
I learn discipline. This is not about forcing
change. Discipline, from the word disciple, is a honing of a skill. It is more like a
musician who practices day after day until his skill increases and the musical
piece sounds right. Over time, I train the ego mind to respond to
the Holy Spirit’s guidance.
Having broken free
of habit, I may still seem like a creature of habit. I may arise at
the same time. I may eat the same breakfast. These are
disciplines, however, which are very different from habits. I am
equally comfortable with a different schedule.
Exercise:
Slowly and gently,
I let go of the ego’s habits. The ego’s cravings are not mine, but
those of a small part of me. I am grateful to understand this even
when the ego still exerts control.
Anxiety may come up
as I let go of habits. Breathing deeply, I observe it. I
recall that I am loved, I am loving, and I am
lovable, forever, no matter what I do. Little by little, habits lose their
power and slowly fade away.
The ego self thinks
it knows best how to live. Its fear and guilt, however, always
affect its perception. They limit its vision, and it cannot know
truth. Always preferable to the ego’s judgments is the guidance of
the Holy Spirit.
The problem with
this guidance from the ego’s point of view is its loss of
control. It may say, “Thy Will be done”, but giving up control it
finds most difficult. A crisis is often required, experienced as a
“dark night of the soul”.
The Will of the
Creator is that I be happy. Nothing more does it wish. Happiness for me is identifying as the Real
Self and extending the love that I am.
I am to do the
Creator's Will, not the will of others. This attitude may sound
selfish. In fact, it is the essence of psychological
health. As I receive, I am free to care for
others. Placing the needs of others first leads to burnout.
I cease to allow
others’ opinions or the ego’s judgments to run my life. Instead, I
ask for the Holy Spirit’s guidance and give thanks for its boundless wisdom.
Exercise:
Slowly I learn to
distinguish the ego’s desires from my true Will, that of the
Creator. The ego always seeks pleasure and comfort. The
Creator only wishes that I bless and forgive this world. He wishes
that I awaken to the truth of what I am,
even if this involves some pain.
To help me learn
the Will of the Creator, I sit quietly or lie down and close my
eyes. I take a deep breath and relax as I exhale. Then I
pull subtle energy straight downward from my head all the way to my feet, and a
little beyond. This becomes easier with practice.
I do this daily for
at least one hour. It helps open the brain centers that allow me to
hear the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Then I ask for help and allow
the answers to come. Since often the ego mind speaks first, I wait
and discern the Creator’s Will for me.
I CHOOSE TO ALLOW MY LIGHT TO SHINE
Fearful and guilty,
the ego self is insecure. Identifying as the ego, I often feel alone. I
may fear rejection. Afraid of being different, I may hide my light.
Identified as the
Real Self, I am one with the Creator. The spark of individuality
remains, though I am one with all. This paradox is the essence of
the Real Self. Like the cells of the body, all share the DNA yet
each is a specialist. Awareness of the whole exists alongside
separateness. This differs from the ego self, totally cut off from
the source.
When I am most
myself, I connect best with others. My Real Self is one with
theirs. When I hide my light, I do not connect as well. I
block my essence, the love that I am. Though the world may reward
it, I serve no one when I hide. Letting my light shine is not the
same as rebelling, though I may seem like a rebel. Letting my light
shine forth is being honest and authentic.
Exercise:
I notice when I
dress just to be accepted. I notice when I say what others want to
hear. Pleasing others or conforming out of fear
denies who
I am.
I stay honest in
spite of pressure, even if I offend at times. I take my cues from
the Holy Spirit. I may seem a bit outrageous as I let my light shine
forth.
The ego self works
for money, or perhaps to build a reputation or name for itself. Fame
and fortune are often its goals. It often does as little work as
possible, preferring idleness and sloth.
Identified as the
Real Self, I view work as service. This is a key to understanding
work.
Work means doing
something that is of value to others. Work is not just “keeping busy”. Work
is doing something that others need. This is why work, as opposed to
hobbies, earns money for people. People are very willing to pay for
work, but not for just activity of any kind.
Exercise:
I notice which activities of mine bring
in money, and it is a way of knowing which are valid work that provides value
to others.
JUDGMENT AND DISCERNMENT
All events are
neutral means that, of themselves, events have no meaning. Like acts
on a stage, they are neither good nor bad. I give meaning to events
through my judgments of them, and through my fears.
A rainstorm of
itself is a neutral event. Rain may spoil my picnic, so I judge that
rain is bad. If, however, I am a farmer, crops need rain so rain is
judged to be good. Too much rain might not be good for the
crops, so that may be judged as bad.
If events were not
neutral, I would be their victim. Since events are always neutral, I
am never a victim of events. Only the ego, judging all events,
perceives itself as a victim.
I give value to
events through the process of perception. Learning how perception
works is the key to understanding the ego mind. Perception is the
way the brain interprets what it sees. By means of a complex
filtering system designed to insure survival,
it sorts
and categorizes each event.
Perception can lead
to judgment, either approving or disapproving of that which I
perceive. Judgment results in projection. I throw out
into the world that which in myself I reject. The more I judge, the
more I project. As a result, the world appears to be a more
fearful place. Then
I judge it even more, causing a vicious cycle.
How I
perceive is based on what I think I am. Events are often
frightening if I identify as an ego. Bombs, earthquakes and disease
it judges as bad. Identifying as the Real Self, waking up is all
that matters. An earthquake, if it helps, is perfect. The
converse is also true. The ego may perceive an event as great, while
the Real Self may not even notice.
Exercise:
When I allow events
to take on meaning, I remember the value comes from
within myself. It will depend on what I think I
am. To perceive the neutrality of events, I set aside
judgments. Instead, I see the Holy Spirit at work in all that
occurs. This is true perception.
I FORGIVE SEVENTY TIMES SEVEN TIMES
Harsh and
condemning, the ego blames and judges. Blame comes from the mind,
never from the heart. It contracts the body, leaving a negative
feeling.
Forgiving is
letting go of judgment. I let everyone and everything off the hook,
no grudges do I hold. I realize all my problems come from
identifying as an ego. No one else is to blame.
Identified as the
Real Self, I discern rather than judge. Discerning is a unique
process. I gently feel my way toward the best course of
action. As I approach it, the body expands and relaxes as the
creative energy flows. Passed over, but not condemned, is the way
not chosen.
Forgiving does not
mean condoning another’s words or actions. Nor does it mean I must
stay in touch. I might send a person to jail if he acts
wrongly. However, I seek not revenge, nor do I act from fear or
anger.
Forgiving, I let
people go. The one most needful of forgiveness is none other
than myself. I forgive myself for believing I am an
ego. I forgive myself for believing the world is real. I
forgive myself for believing I make mistakes. Most of all, I forgive
myself for judging and blaming myself. I forgive myself for my
misperceptions.
The more I forgive
myself, the easier it is to forgive others. Letting go of blame and
judgment, I relax and feel happy. The world is a stage and no one is
condemned.
Forgiving is also
an expression of my power. The ability to forgive makes me stronger
than my adversaries. A victim who forgives ceases to be a
victim. Others can no longer use my anger to upset me.
Through forgiveness I
transform. Forgiving over and over is a fast way to break
old patterns. I begin to understand that no one hurts me without my
consent. I co-create my life. Others help me enact my
dramas. I can change whenever I want.
Exercise:
Awakening requires
forgiving everyone for everything – no exceptions. When I don't hold
any grudges, I am forgiving. I discern instead of
judging. To help me understand discernment, I imagine tuning a
flute. If it sounds out of tune, I adjust it and try
again. It may take several tries until it sounds in tune.
Judging is
different. It is more like saying, "I don't like that
note. That note is bad. I am bad for playing
it. I must play differently". This simple example
helps me feel the difference between judging and discerning.
I practice forgiving every
single day. It becomes a habit like getting dressed each
morning. I forgive friends and family. I forgive crazy
drivers. I forgive politicians. Most of all, I forgive
myself. I forgive each and every day. I bless
everyone and set them free.
Identified as the
ego self, I stare out through the body’s eyes. The world appears to
consist of many separate selves. Happy or sad, friendly or
threatening, the ego judges based on its perceptions.
As the Real Self, I
am not inside this body. Inside of me is the body. There
are no separate selves, only the illusion of separation. All Real
Selves are one with each other and with the Creator.
The world I see is
a projection of my thoughts. All I see are aspects
of myself. Judging others, I judge aspects of
myself. To assist me to awaken, these actors in my drama cooperate
by playing their parts. Knowing this helps me stop judging others.
An atom bomb
or a war are aspects of
myself. When a flower blooms or a child is born, these, too, are
aspects of myself.
Anyone or anything
that causes a negative reaction is something unwanted
in myself. I am grateful to see the projection. I
thank others for showing it to me. I forgive myself for my
misperception and judgment of this aspect of myself.
Exercise:
When tempted to
judge another, I recall that judgment is always of myself. All
are aspects of the One Self that we are. When tempted to judge
another I say, “This is an interesting aspect of myself.”
Rather than judge,
I give thanks for having seen this projected part of myself. This
assists me to forgive myself and others.
If I meet a
homeless person, rather than judge I say to myself, “When have I felt
homeless?” If someone tries to hurt me, rather than judge I reflect,
“When have I wanted to hurt another?” When on television I see a
person starving, I say to myself, “When have I in some way starved myself?”
This type of
reasoning helps me recall that everything I see is an aspect
of myself. I need not judge it or fix it. It is
enough just to observe it.
Many people think
their issues are unique. My problem is from my childhood or my bad
judgment. It is mine and none like it exists. Feeling
this way often leads to self-judgment. The more I judge myself, the
worse I feel. This can result in even more judgment, causing a
vicious cycle.
Everyone, it is
true, creates their own circumstances in order to awaken. No issue,
however, is purely personal. Thousands of others
deal with
issues the same as mine. Whether family or money, depression or
anxiety, my issues are never just mine.
Identified as the
Real Self, no personal issues exist. All Real Selves share one
mind. Feeling lack at times, is it not possible I have agreed to
take on this common concern? Perhaps I have done so out of
compassion to heal it for others as well as for myself.
After all, I have
more resources than most of the world's people. I have agreed to
help others by dealing with this issue myself.
The same principle
applies to illness and other problems. Connected to the whole, I
will feel its pain and assist its healing. Though I may not realize
it, I am so powerful that I choose to help heal the most
weighty of issues. Recalling this helps avoid guilt and
self-judgment that only slow my awakening.
Exercise:
In taking on
problems and healing them, I celebrate my power and greatness. I
recognize no issue is mine alone. All are collective
issues. It
does not concern me why certain ones I have chosen. My focus is just
to heal them.
In order to awaken,
the Holy Spirit brings to me exactly what I need. Giving up or
feeling sorry for myself really accomplish
nothing. In the future, I will just have to face the issues
again. Instead, I cease to blame myself for my problems, realizing
they are never just mine. I assume full responsibility and forge
ahead courageously.
This idea is
confusing. Deeply held in most people is the belief in
compulsion. Based in fear, the ego self often feels like a
victim. Life often appears as a struggle with forces one cannot
control. Compelled by outside forces, it often says "I
should", "I must" or "I have to" do this or
that.
The Real Self is
sovereign. Identified as the Real Self, I choose all that I
do. I choose to eat and to breathe, to work and to
sleep. I choose to associate with a body and I choose to maintain
it. Everything related to the body is also a choice. Once
I make the
choice for
a body, other choices follow. All these stem, however, from a
previous choice. Nothing in my life is forced upon me.
The statement 'I
need do nothing' does not mean that I do nothing. It means I act
from choice. I do nothing out of compulsion. I am
never forced to act. Therefore I am always in
control. 'I need do nothing' affirms the truth of my
sovereignty. In reality, all that I do is
from choice.
I am more effective
when I do not act out of compulsion. Graceful and orderly, I
accomplish more when I am not pushed or forced.
The voluntary
nature of all that I do is a basic spiritual principle, one of the most fundamental. It
is the basis for classical liberal thought of the 18th century.
The founders of
America based their society on voluntary exchanges between
citizens. Rights to freely contract and associate, and to write and
speak freely derive from the spiritual principle of
voluntarism. Capitalism and a market economy mean voluntary economic
exchanges between people. This is the opposite of compulsion, which
characterizes socialism, communism, social democracy, dictatorship and monarchies.
Exercise:
I notice when I say
"I have to", "I ought to", "I should" or "I
must". These words imply weakness and victim
status. When I use these words, I speak untruths. They
have no place in my life.
All I do I
choose. I need do nothing. When I speak the truth, I feel
empowered.
Peace can be of
several types. The absence of war and strife is peace for the
ego. Dependent on compromise, it is always
temporary. Though peace seems to reign, inside fear and blame
persist. For the next battle, fearful egos prepare.
Connected to the
source of love, the Real Self is at peace within. Connected to all
others, cooperation is its theme. Independent of conditions, this
peace cannot be bargained for. It is a way of being that exists
in my mind.
Abraham Lincoln
once declared, “People are about as happy as they choose to
be". One could also say, "people are about as peaceful as
they choose to be".
Identifying as the
Real Self, I am at peace within. This does not mean I am a doormat
or that I walk on eggshells. Nor does it imply I compromise or I do
not care. It means inside I am at peace.
This also does not
mean I am a pacifist who judges as bad any use of force. I do not
judge anything as good or bad. If friends or family were
threatened, perhaps I would employ force. I would act, however, from
a place of peace within. The Holy Spirit guides me to discern the
best response in every situation.
Exercise:
I choose to be at
peace within by identifying as the Real Self. This way I can live from
a place of peace. This has little to do with peace in the world.
Here egos enact
their fearful dreams. Living in the world, I may respond with force,
if needed, as directed by the Holy Spirit. To stop those who would
harm others, the use of force may be required. I teach peace by
radiating the essence of what I am.
To compensate for
weakness and for feeling alone, the ego always strives. Acting
tough, competing or trying to please others are common ways it behaves. Those identified as egos believe they make their lives happen.
Connected to the
source of love, the Real Self allows. Allowing assumes what I need
is already available. My task is to receive it into my daily
life. 'Love waits upon my welcome' is an expression of this
idea. Becoming receptive and open, I choose to
allow. Knowing all good awaits
me, I give thanks for things unseen.
Allowing does not
require a struggle. Work feels very different when I do not compete
with others. I express what I am and assist others to express
themselves. I do not seek outer rewards as I am
fulfilled from within.
What I do is not as
important as how I do it. In order to allow, I learn to
relax. This permits the energy of love to flow through
me. Empty of self, empty of striving, love flows through me to the
world.
Exercise:
Identified as the
Real Self, I allow rather than strive. I relax, breathe deeply and
radiate the love that I am. I stay active in the world without
pushing or forcing. That which is already mine is all I need
receive. Neither greed nor ambition can find a home in me.
Successful and
fulfilled am I. If I notice I am striving with the ego self, I
recall what I am and let go of the struggle.
The ego mind,
unsure of itself, seeks safety and convenience first. Truth is not one of
its high values, and in many people it is not a value at all. In fact,
ego selves dislike clear moral codes such as the 10 Commandments of Moses,
which has guided the growth of Western civilization.
Instead, ego selves
often like the idea of moral
relativism. This is a new age idea that is a judgment on any form of
standards. Such people say, “I have my truth and you have your
truth”. I do what feels good and I don’t like fixed standards”. Feelings,
which are often deceptive, determine their behavior. Rigidly following
earthly standards, they say, just leads to blame and judgment. These
separate a person from others and often lead to conflict.
Identified as the
Real Self, there is only one truth. I ask the Holy Spirit for guidance
and discern in every moment. This is one difference between this teaching
and the new age idea of moral relativism.
This teaching
embraces absolute truths. If this causes some conflict, so be it.
This is the only way some people learn about truth.
Exercise:
I cease to judge myself and others by my feelings. As I identify more
with the Real Self, I understand moral codes such as the Ten Commandments as
signposts that point the way to an ordered and sane life. The word commandment in Hebrew means a signpost,
not a rule.
At times, I may
seem soft and at others tough or hard. In an instant, I may change my
mind, always guided by the Holy Spirit with whom I check constantly. It
may look like I live free as the wind. This does not mean I have no
standards. Mine, in fact, are stricter than any earthly laws.
I am here to give
forth the love that I am. This, however, can occur in two different
ways. Giving can arise from fullness or emptiness.
Empty of love is
the ego self. Out of compulsion or in order to get something are how it gives. It gives from guilt or
fear, need or obligation, or to offset low self-worth.
When I feel
pressured to give, I am about to give from emptiness. Feeling the
need to give some more comes when giving from
emptiness. When I feel depleted, giving is from emptiness.
Identified as the
Real Self, I can give from fullness. First, I allow the love of the
Creator to fulfill me within. Then and only then, the love overflows
onto those around me.
Giving in this way
is natural and effortless. I never feel compelled or drained by this
type of giving. The standards of the Real Self may be quite
different. Out of guilt, fear or compulsion may have been much of my
giving. Now, I give only when I am
filled within. Not only does this feel much better, it assists
all those around me.
In order to give
from fullness, it helps to be in excellent health. Improving my
nutrition and avoiding toxic chemicals assist me to give from a state of
health.
Exercise:
I hold a cup under
the water faucet. When it fills up completely, it spills out all
around me. Giving from fullness is giving like this. All
that is required is to receive for myself. Being so full of love, my
cup runneth over. I think of this analogy often and notice
the feeling when I give from fullness.
HEALING AND HEALTH
Healing is
related to wholeness and holiness. Identified as the ego self,
I am never really healed. As the ego self, I can never be whole as I
am pretending to be something other than what I am.
The ego
is totally ignorant of what healing requires. Instead,
from its judgments, it develops loves and aversions. Food and drink
become substitutes for real love. It may crave stimulants for
artificial energy. It often values appearances above reality.
It often indulges
in harmful habits of living and working as coping mechanisms or
defenses. Its anger, guilt and fear send damaging messages to the
cells. Treatments may improve aspects of the body-mind, but their effects
will be limited. Declining health is the inevitable result.
At one level,
healing is the decision to identify as the Real Self. In this sense,
all healing is of the mind. Once identified as the Real Self,
healing has occurred. I am whole.
I need no longer
indulge the ego’s tastes and preferences. Its needs and cravings, I
place in perspective. I view the body as a machine that I keep in
excellent working order. I am free to give it exactly what it
requires.
The Holy Spirit
guides me to healthful habits and treatments when
appropriate. Development science suggests many of
these. I give thanks for the healing that has already occurred.
Symptoms may persist
a while, even though healing has occurred at one level. Symptoms may
result from my former ways of thinking. Hidden negative thoughts may
take years to uncover. Also, toxins, malnutrition and other
imbalances require time and attention for their removal.
Symptoms may also
arise temporarily as the body-mind reviews, processes and resolves old ailments
and traumas. Most important is not whether I still have symptoms,
but the direction my life is moving.
Exercise:
In order for
healing to occur, I shift my identity to the Real Self. The love of
the Creator flows through me, nourishing my soul and informing my every
decision. I am no longer bound by the ego’s passions,
habits and preferences.
I am now a finder
not a seeker. I do not to seek for healing, as this implies
I am not healed. I am grateful that healing has
occurred. I accept help and support to correct leftover ego traits
and in order to purify and nourish the body-mind properly.
The ego in myself or another can be vicious and
defensive. It is tempting to love the Real Self and hate the
ego. If, however, I attack the ego, I offer it too much
power. Attacking gives it credibility, strengthening something that
is weak.
Another option is
to deny the foibles of the ego. Since the ego is unreal, I may not
heed its demands. However, this may not work if I wish to keep a
body. If the body demands sleep, ignoring the
demand may
lead to illness. If others threaten me, ignoring the threat may
endanger the body.
There is another
way to respond to ego demands. Instead of judging or ignoring them,
I bring love to them. Avoiding judgment maintains the flow of love
to me. Extending love reduces fear, the cause of many ego demands.
I bring love to all
my ego traits. For my ability to judge and become afraid, I can love
myself. For my capacity for self-criticism, I can love
myself. For my ability to believe I have failed, I can love
myself. For their ability to be so cruel, I can love others. Indeed,
they play their parts well.
Bringing love to a
situation does not mean indulging the ego’s wishes. I do not have to
eat ice cream whenever the urge arises. I ask the Holy Spirit when
ice cream is appropriate. Rarely, it may be alright. Most
of the time, it is not.
Nor does bringing
love to a situation mean I condone another’s behavior. I may object
to what I observe. Actions have consequences and no one is
exempt. For their conduct, each is still responsible.
Withholding love,
however, would imply love is not appropriate here. This is never
true, as love is all that exists.
In order to
transcend a thing, I must first allow it and embrace it. Embracing
it means bringing love to it. I accept every part of the ego self,
even its fears and shortcomings. I bring love to the ego as the
Creator extends love to me. I
include all of myself in the
circle of my love and among
those to whom I give.
Exercise:
The Creator's love
I bring to all situations. Allowing, embracing and trusting, love
alone heals all things. I bring love to every aspect of
myself. To others’ ego traits and actions, I bring love as
well. I bring the Creator’s healing love to all situations.
Events may not work
out the way the ego had hoped. It often judges this as
failure. It thought it knew what was best. Its
presumption, however, might have been incorrect.
Identified as the
Real Self, I realize all events are neutral. There is only success
because the energy of love never ceases. Forms come and
go. As long as I do not identify with them, their loss I do not
feel.
Failure and loss are not possible when I identify as the
Real Self. If things do not work out as
planned, I can celebrate. I have chosen a different outcome.
Failure is a
prominent feature of most school systems. There is no failure does not mean that all achievement is the
same. In school as on the job, some learn slower and are less
adept. However, they are not failures. They need
different methods or a new environment. Failure is a destructive
idea within the schools and everywhere else.
Exercise:
I catch myself
whenever I believe I or another has
failed. Though I am free to perceive events any way I wish,
failure is impossible. There are
only neutral events. Judgment words like failure and loss
are best left out of my vocabulary. All is well and there is only
love.
What people call
death is when the body no longer functions. The
souls, however, don’t die. They just go free and move on to their
next assignment. Death of the body is freeing to the souls. This is
one rationale for capital punishment, also called the death penalty.
The only real death
the soul can experience is the end of ego identification. It is the
death of a false self.
Partial release of
the thought that I am the ego may cause me to feel like I am dying. Although
perhaps painful, release of the thought that I am the ego is a cause for
celebration.
Exercise:
I understand that I
can feel as though I am dying, when the ego self is dying. I allow
the feeling and know it will pass. I am glad that I am becoming
more identified as the Real Self.
GUILT
DUE TO SEPARATION IS ALWAYS FALSE
Identified as the
ego self, I believe I separated from my Creator. For this I feel
condemned and guilty.
Once I know the
origin of this guilt, I can see its falseness. This guilt is false
because separation from the Creator is impossible. I am always one
with my Creator.
In fact, the basis
for this ego existence is the judgment of guilt. Identified as the
ego, the sensation of guilt at its worst is that of wanting to die, as though
sucked into an abyss.
The ego seeks a
remedy for this horrible feeling and creates its false reality to forget its
guilt. No matter how hard it tries, however, after a while the
feeling often returns. Many people spend their lives running from
this guilt.
The ego self looks
for the cause of this guilt in the world, but it is not to be
found there. Its real source is a false judgment of having
separated from the Creator.
Identified as the
Real Self, I realize I am innocent of separating from my
Creator. Everyone else is innocent of this, as well.
Our current legal
system puts a lot of emphasis upon the judgment of guilt. The older
British common law legal system emphasized restitution, rather than the
judgment of guilt.
Exercise:
When I feel guilty
for having separated from my Creator, I remember that this guilt is always
false. In truth, I am always connected to my Creator.
The ego lives in
fear, disconnected from the Creator’s love. Fear is only the absence
of the Creator’s love. Darkness is the absence of light and fear is
the absence of love.
Fear is
closely related to guilt. Many eons ago, the soul judged itself
guilty. Judgment cut off the flow of love from the
Creator. The absence of this love is the feeling known as fear.
Fear led to the
creation of the ego identity, a substitute for the love of the
Creator. Egos invented the world as a place to search for
love. The world is not love’s source, so the search is always
futile.
Instead of love,
the ego finds distraction and tries to forget its fear. When fear
rears its head, the ego gets busy or calls a friend.
Most fill their
entire lives with substitutes for the Creator’s love. This even
includes relationships that appear loving. All are attempts to
suppress the feeling of fear.
Some cannot so
easily avoid it and fear haunts them day and night. They lack
understanding of the cause of their dilemma. More aware of the human
condition, they are less adept at denial. They need to know that
everyone is equally afraid. Fear is the universal condition of those
identified as egos. Its cause has little to do with events, though
one is free to believe otherwise.
Fright, a sensation
in the body, is not the same as fear. Fright is a glandular
response, as when one confronts a wild animal. Fright occurs in the
present and ends quickly. In contrast, fear is a chronic anxiety
about an uncertain future.
When denial fails,
fear can be terrifying. At these moments, the ego self is closest to
the truth. The horror presents it with a choice. It can
run back to its distractions, hoping they will work. Truth, however,
calls out to the soul to search more deeply and recall the sequence of events:
I am innocent, connected to the source of
love. From my Creator, I imagined that I separated. For
this I judged myself as guilty. Judgment cut me off from the flow of
the Creator’s love. This absence of love I feel as fear.
I realize the judgment
is false. I am innocent and connected to my Creator. I
ask for love to flow to me and I pull it into myself from above my
head. As I do this, fear fades
away. Feeling one with my Creator, I am filled with
love. I am safe, secure and joyous.
Exercise:
When fear arises, I
recall its cause. Judging the soul guilty preceded the feeling of
fear. Judgment cut me off from the love of the Creator.
What I feel as fear
is the lack of love. Acting from the belief that I am separate, I
have forgotten who and what I am.
I affirm that I am
one with the Creator. I and the Father are
one. I let go of self-judgment and affirm my
innocence. Separation is unreal and I am always
loved. I draw the energy of love into my body with the pulling down
exercise. As turning on a light dispels the darkness, allowing love
to enter does away with fear.
People handle fear
in many different ways. Most attempt to
deny its existence by focusing on worldly interests. To avoid
feeling fear, more attention than necessary is given to
activities. This causes excessive intensity and even
obsessive-compulsive behavior.
One's activities,
prowess or relationships become closely tied to one's
identity. This results in burnout and chronic unhappiness.
Others blame
themselves for fear. They become angry with
themselves. This results in guilt. The judgment of guilt
further removes them from the love they are. Feeling less love
results in more fear that further increases self-blame and
guilt. This is a vicious cycle that depletes the
body. Disease, apathy, and depression ensue.
Projecting the
cause of fear is the most common response. Projection is a trick of
the mind that makes something inside of me appear to
be elsewhere. The cause of fear is perceived to be outside
of myself.
The ego may believe
that fear is attacking it. Judging the fear, it fights back with the
emotion of anger. Anger is a glandular response. Someone
or something wants to hurt me and I must respond.
In the world, anger
is often justified. Some call it righteous anger. All
anger, however, causes the glands to overwork. Digestion
also suffers as always do I feel
threatened. Suspicion replaces trust. Others feel
projected upon and may respond in kind. This often poisons
relationships.
I may also project
the cause of my fear on to a group. Prejudice and bigotry are the
result. I make many enemies as long as I project the cause of my
fear.
Anger often leads
to a vicious cycle. When I project the cause of my fear, it appears
out there in the world. This makes the world appear more
fearful. To allay the additional fear, again I project its cause
outside of myself. Again it appears outside of me, creating an
even more fearful world. Attacks of anxiety and paranoia are often
the result. Over time, these deplete the body, leading to
degenerative
diseases.
Many are caught in
this vicious cycle or one of the others discussed in this
book. These deplete the body’s energy and lead to disease and death
of the body. This is what life is about for almost everyone on the
planet. A primary goal of this teaching is to
end these
vicious cycles.
Exercise:
When angry, I ask
myself what do I fear? Repeating this whenever anger occurs
diffuses my anger and saves the body from stress. Avoiding the
feeling of fear is at the root of all my anger.
I will never
justify anger. Anger just exhausts the body and leads to
hatred. It is never worth the consequences.
Understanding fear
and anger, I can remove their cause. The self-judgment of guilt over
my perceived separation from my Creator cut off the flow of
love. This is the cause of the fear that, in turn, gives rise to
anger.
Separation,
however, never occurred. The judgment of guilt is
false. I let it go.
The habit of
believing that fear is attacking me may be
held deeply. Correction may not occur immediately.
Remaining
compassionate with myself, I recall that fear and anger are options I need not
choose. I am always loved by the Creator and
this love dispels fear.
SEPARATION
FROM GOD IS MY ONLY PROBLEM
Identified as the
ego self, I see a multitude of problems. Some are personal, while
others affect many people. Many of them seem complex, with multiple
causes. Problems abound, whether it is war, pollution, or something
else.
Identified as the
Real Self, life is much simpler. The only real problem is separation
from God. Based upon this mistake, the ego selves created a false,
fear-based reality. Here all the egos compete for survival and
power. As a result, many problems arise.
Identified as the
Real Self, I recall that separation from God never
occurred. I am always connected to the Creator through the
sparks of the souls inside me. Separation is an illusion, and
nothing more.
Exercise:
When I believe I
have a problem, I recall that the false belief in separation is my only
problem. I sit or lie down quietly and move energy downward from my
head to my feet. I move it past the area just below the pituitary
gland.
From this place, it
is easier to hear the voice of the Creator that comes through the tiny wire
that connects my main soul to the Creator.
I ask, “Father,
what would you have me do?” and I wait patiently for a response. A
very fast response is often not that of the Creator. His response
requires several seconds to arrive. To check, I may ask the same
question again. For the best communication, I must be rested,
relaxed, and not hungry, thirsty or stressed.
As I identify more
with the Real Self, vigilance is required. The ego self keeps
arising as I move about in the world.
Vigilance is
single-mindedness. A certain discipline is
needed. Otherwise, the mind tends to stray, much like an untrained
pet.
In some other
teachings, it is said that “The warrior is
impeccable”. This is identical to vigilance. It means the
warrior stays focused and never strays from his path. Identifying as
the Real Self requires the same attention.
Exercise:
Each day, I read
this book or some other to remind me of the truth. Other ways to be
vigilant for the kingdom are to make sure I am rested and nourished at all
times.
Another excellent
idea is to do the pushing down exercise. The discipline of a
development program can also help.
I also interact, as
much as possible, with others who identify as the Real Self. Most
others, I let go. They may seem nice, but they pull me away from the
truth.
Identified as the
Real Self, there is little to do but celebrate. To celebrate is to
bless this world. Love is all there is. Love is what I
am. I am innocent and so is the world. I am grateful for
the truth that has corrected my mind.
My work may remain
the same, but my attitude has been transformed. My life becomes
just a way of blessing the world. Wherever I go, there will I celebrate.
The ego believes it
goes shopping for the purpose of buying groceries. The
Real Self knows it goes to the market because its love is
needed there. When I go to the movies, the ego believes it is
to be entertained. The Real Self knows its love is
needed there. If I am ill and go to the doctor, I bless the
doctor and all of the staff. As the Real Self, I go to all places
and interact with all people in celebration, not out of need.
Each morning when I
awaken I give thanks for the opportunity to extend the Creator’s
love. Life is a continuous celebration and a never-ending joy.
Exercise:
I am here to
celebrate, to extend the love that I am. Wherever I am is where my
love is needed. Whether in a traffic jam or in line at the
store, this is where my love is needed. Alone asleep at home,
my love is needed there.
Just excuses to
extend love are all of my activities. They are contexts that I
create in order to celebrate and bless this world.